"Success is not final, failure is not fatal: it is the courage to continue that counts." -Winston Churchill

Thursday, September 27, 2012

18 Month (updated!)

11 days ago, we hit a year and a half of breastfeeding. A year and a half of struggles, triumphs, anguish, anger, despair, elation, love, and accomplishments. And healing.

There was a time, in the last year and a half, that I thought about having another baby. About doing whatever I could try, between weaning and becoming pregnant again, to build more breast tissue. About becoming a guinea pig; taking hormones, taking herbal supplements, in an effort to make my glandular tissue "sufficient."

But now, I am at a point where I think I am done making babies and struggling to breastfeed them. I had one amazing, life-transforming natural birth. I have one amazing, awesome, soul-healing nursing relationship with a baby who loves nursing, and hated bottles.

I know many moms out there, struggling with low milk supply, but desperate for a nursing relationship, are fighting a losing battle with the bottle, a baby who won't latch, a baby who hates the SNS.

She obviously doesn't hate the SNS.

And I know I am lucky. I don't take it for granted how lucky I am. I didn't work any harder, do anything better than those moms who are grieving their lost nursing relationship. I just got lucky.

And I know I might not get that lucky again. 

So I'll quit while I'm ahead. I'll nurse my little girl until she decides it's time to move on, and then... we'll move on. 

Or not.  Looks like I may have tandem SNSing in my future...

Coming this Fall!